donmaytee

Ok, i can't believe i'm saying this, my girlfriend is 17, i am 18, she is 24 weeks pregnant (Unplanned) but both happy, parents supporting, im working full time, i love her to bits, and she and this child means the world to me, i never want to loose her, would never cheat on her, never have, i've never kissed a girl ever,

Now before i say anything, during this pregnancy we arn't sexually active, it's very tough but i respect her wishes, also, please don't just have a go at me for getting her pregnant rah rah rah, because i get that in my day to day life...

Ok, to the point.. Like i said i would never cheat, EVER. But recently i find myself, discussing by text having sex with other people, talking about having sex with them etc, sometimes getting to the point where im saying hahaha, shall i come round?

BUT seriously, i never would go round, i don't even want sex with the people i talk to with this stuff, I just want my girlfriend forever full stop, but why am i doing this? Its so stupid, im so upset i've started doing it because i know my girlfriend would be heart broken

But like i said, id never follow up what we talk about, it's just a sort of joke to me, a laugh.. Is there something wrong with me? I want to tell her, but i feel it would break her heart. Maybe i should just never do it again, and never tell her? Or tell her when shes not pregnant??

I don't ever want to loose her, what am i doing..