I thank you all for your opinions =) I've always trusted honest answers here.
Yeah, I learned a lesson. But when I got to thinking about it, the offer on the plat came up when I said something about being sick of being behind. The friend offered to buy the plat in order to help me out. Considering I wasn't playing and wouldn't be for a long time. (lost gaming interest). We've been friends several years now and earlier I was brooding over it, I wondered if the friend might have taken advantage of the situation. I have no proof of that just started feeling weird about it. Considering said friend worked a day extra to pay 500$ bail for his mother when his next pay was just a few days earlier, also that the boss was the only one to sign checks and he was out for a week or two.
My long time friend (the loaner) and I had a long talk about why WE would even be in this type of "argument" to begin with. We've always been "here you go. might need something from you one of these days". But I have promised to doing babysitting (oy vey my nerves) and some light cleaning for the next week or so.
So... one side friend fixed, just a matter if the other and I remember the same exact thing from the other friend. Honestly I love both of them to death. They've been there with me through so many times that I just couldn't make it alone mentally. I guess that's why this has been so hard for me to deal with.
But, yes lesson definitely learn. I've got a goal for the rest of the year to put back money for stupid times like these. Might take some time with a fixed income.
Honesty with myself has been difficult after a few things condition wise for me, I never saw myself in that way and I haven't truly accepted it yet. But there will be some very long thinking and bouncing off someone outside the circle of tension.
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Quantum Cat Theory:
Upon hearing the sound of a can being opened,
it becomes possible for a cat to travel faster than the speed of light.
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