Nienna, I'm happy for you that you were both able to talk it through and still decide to give it another chance. It takes courage from both of you to do that. I hope it works out.
As for your unhappiness, let me just say that, no matter how much you love him, please make sure the relationship is right for you. Sometimes no matter how much love you give to another, if they do not reciprocate, you are wasting your love on them. I'm not saying this is the case, but I would certainly be sad if my boyfriend did not even mention my birthday after 3 years together. Seems like an odd oversight on the one day per year that marks a person's coming into existence.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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