You are a Marine. If you want to off yourself, you will do so. Pills are for crybabies and pussies, and hardly ever work. Don't play like you couldn't do it if you wanted to. Begging for attention and whining is not for a man of your stature. Rise up, soldier. Quit being a coward.
Go flip burgers if you have to. Room up with someone, even use craigslist to find a roomie if you want. Ride a bike until you have the cash to get a decent car, or sell yours for what it's worth and keep saving, pedaling along until you have what you need. It's not like you'll be the only one riding as bike. I see plenty. Get a loan if you can. Do what you have to now to survive, and deal with the paybacks later. It's all about survival, while not taking away anyone else's ability to survive as well. I think you've already passed the cash for clunkers deal, so that was stupid on your part but in times of depression, people do stupid things. I get that, really.
You just need to suck it up and move on man. I lost my whole family on one side and gained a new one. It brought me down a bit even though I disowned them willingly, but in the end I was so much better off. Things will change, you just have to trudge through it until then. When you have your head on straight, those that knew you before will forgive you. Trust me, I know from personal experience.
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We contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle.
-Winston Churchill
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