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Old 08-23-2009, 04:02 AM   #3 (permalink)
ametc
Psycho
 
My whole family instilled it in me that I must be smart and marry rich and be pale. My parents wanted me to be independent like my eldest sister and my eldest sister taught me calculus while she was in high school and I was six or seven. She was always in the advanced classes and almost made it to valedictorian but ran away from home and missed some school while she looked for a place to live on her own. She's now 27 and has her own home and an awesome job. My parents wanted me to be like her but instead of being an engineer, they wanted me to be a nurse or doctor and they wanted me to marry a businessman or doctor.

I can't count how many arranged marriages my mother tried to set me up with.. I refused them all because I was a rebel.

I've yet to live the life I want, and I highly doubt I'll ever be what I've been taught to want nor will I ever be that hard partying ~cool~ aunt that has traveled the world and has a million exciting and funny stories to tell everybody. ~sigh~

But, I don't mind. I do mind when my depression gets me down... but when I feel good.. I don't mind not being what I want to be. Because really.. it's what I want to be and not what I need to be. And I honestly don't know right now what I need to be. So, until I find out what I need to be, I'm just gonna chill out for a while. We got our whole lives ahead of us and one random day it will just hit us and we'll know.

Or so I've heard from my patients that that's how it goes.
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