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What do you do when you're so bored you're ready to die?
I say die, not kill myself. I do need/want to finish my book. That's about the main thing keeping me going. But disease has imprisoned me in my own body. Well not quite so bad as that but close. Anyways, I got drunk tonight. Am now. Side note...I'm amazed I can still type ~50 words a minute yet I can barely walk. Anyways, what do you do when you've become so bored you're ready to die? This isn't depression either, I've got a degree and have experienced it before and this isn't it. Right right now, this moment, I want to connect with more people. I called my friends and they were busy or not answering (one friend just had a kid). Especially connect in a sexual freedom kind of way I wouldn't normally be able to sober (I have sever anxiety problems).
Fuck, it just makes me so angry atm. I feel so trapped and imprisoned. All I want is to be free.
PS holy shit, I don't think I blinked through writing that entire thing.
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