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This really hit home, I lost my dad 2 weeks ago. My mum was a complete basket case and I had to fly up and deal with all the formalities. Only thing is I suffer anxiety and depression so i was very confused about how i would handle all this while i was there my mum had a heart attack and was rushed to a regional hospital and there i was left with no transport, a mum in hospital and a funeral to organise. I have siblings but they couldnt get there for various reasons i coped, but i havent really grieved yet. I am a bit worried because i am sad but everything just seems so normal now that i am back home. I guess living so far away, i didnt see them often, but i wonder why the dishes and the washing seem to worry me more than the passing of my father dont get me wrong i love my dad and my mum (who is ok now) but i thought i would completely fall apart for ages and wind up on meds and be good for nothing One thing i am finding hard is handling people expressing their sympathy, i feel i should make them feel better and its my fault their sad. Sorry about the rant but i havent really talked to anyone about how i FEEL and its helping me sort my thoughts and emotions Thanx for reading.
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