Thanks for the insights. Part of me thinks it would be best...instead of doing a long-drawn out end just to cut it off right now. Problem is our lives are so intertwined right now. It's like she is distancing herself as much as she can right now but can't pull the trigger on ending anything herself because even with the shit hitting the fan I still treat her like gold. I get none of the affection/attention I crave yet I still make her breakfast and dinner, still help her with her schoolwork, still am there for her whenever she needs help or anything. And I know it sounds stupid for me to do this but that's just who I am and I know that's what is holding things together right now. I know my at times my unrealistic optimism and laid-back attitude pisses her off. Because it makes her feel like the guilty one. And she also thinks because I don't like to fight or yell or get angry that I lack passion, imo. What does piss me off is that I feel like she's a totally different person than the one who I fell in love with. She wanted me so bad, wanted my commitment realizing what type of guy I was...then she got it and realized she was still 24 and didn't want to be tied down. Could be that she's just at a selfish, immature stage in life or could be she is realizing she doesn't want to be tied down period. Dunno.
Two sides to every story of course, I'm certainly learning on the fly as this has been obviously the most serious relationship I have ever been in.
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^Do you just cut and paste this? You have to use it often enough that typing it could cause carpal tunnel...
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Nah just a stream of consciousness, never posted anything on any message board like this in my life.