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All I see while reading your entire post is 'I'm not ready', 'She wants a baby now', 'I want to focus on my career', 'She says I don't care about her needs'. I'd say that's a good summary of the situation.
I don't think there is a ready moment, after maybe say the age of 20. So, not being ready is a bad argument. But if you guys can't afford it right now, I'd say that's a pretty good indication that it's the wrong moment, regardless of her biological clock. Also, putting your career first, when you’re only 25 (despite her being older), is reasonable too. It's not like she's 40 and won't be able to have kids soon.
I understand where she’s coming from. She probably has always known she wanted kids, and thought what a good age would be to start having them. That age is probably passing and she’s getting worried it won’t go how she’d like it to. Maybe she doesn’t want to have kids too late because she wants to not have too big a generation gap with them. Also, the earlier you have kids, the longer they get to have you around. I would say that most women would like to have had kids by 35, if they want kids. Partly for the reasons I have mentioned above, partly for health reasons. The risks of pregnancy, both for child and mother, increase as a woman ages.
I think it’s unfortunate that you find yourselves at this crossroads. The age difference between you is not helping you. One of you is going to have to concede to the other. That is, if you want to stay the course with each other. I’m not saying you should have kids or that she should put her wishes on hold for your career. Maybe a compromise could be reached – you don’t have kids right now, but in a couple of years, regardless of where you are in your career, you can try for one? Two years is not so long to wait. If you expect her to wait another 5, I think from the amount of anxiety she is displaying right now, she won’t be able to take it.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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