Halanna

Well, true to my form, I have a lot to say. Beware!

You can't worry about fixing relationships. You can't expend mental and emotional energy trying to fix things that are not YOU, yourself, your mind, your body, your spirit.

There are persons that are unfortunately surrounded by people, whether by blood or legally, that are not who they need in their life. I would be suspect if you said this is the first incidence of negativity from your family. It is possible that your family is playing a role in your depression and suicidal thoughts and you are not even aware of it. There is no shame or anything wrong with ceasing communication with those who cause you further pain.

Uncconditional love is something we read about, watch in movies and hope for. Many experience this from their parents. But there are many who don't. There is no law that says you are provided with unconditional love from a parent, sibling or other loved one. Some people have to make or create their own family, surrounding themselves with those who love them, unconditionally.

If you have a ton of friends that won't talk to you anymore, than they were not true friends to begin with. I know that is hard to hear, and hard to accept, but if that is what is happening, then it's true.

We are the company that we keep.

Surround yourself with those who love you. They may be someone you met yesterday, or tomorrow. But they are not necessarily related to you by blood or legally.

Look into who you are as a person. You DO have a special quality, maybe more than one. You ARE important, you just haven't found where your niche is.

We look for unconditional love around us, but it begins with every person loving themselves unconditionally. Until you can do that, you can't expect anyone else to.