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Originally Posted by ametc
So.. long story short: I overdosed on Ambien about two weeks ago and went to the mental hospital and all that. this is my third time.
I'm going to outpatient group therapy everyday for six hours for addiction and mood management. I like it. but, that's not the problem I'm facing right now..
right now.. I feel like so many people are disappointed in me. A ton of my friends won't talk to me anymore. They won't hang out with me anymore. I also overheard my family having a discussion about me and they admitted to eachother that they're simply tired of me now.
I dunno what to do about this. How do I fix my relationship with people I've hurt through my suicide attempt?
Also.. I called the national suicide hotline and they put me on fucking HOLD.. for 15 minutes. Then, when they finally answered, they introduced themselves and put down the phone. WTF was that about?????? THX suicide hotline for making me feel even more unwanted! >:C
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On October 5th, 2001, I flat lined from an intentional overdose. I've been in rehab for addiction and head issues 7 times since 1993. And I was finally diagnosed as bipolar 3-4 years ago. I know exactly what you're going through regarding your family and friends being fed up with your shit.
I envy you that you're able to start treatment. I'm in a rough patch right now and I'd kill to enroll in something. However it's just not an option for me atm. Treatment was wonderful, starting out as pure hell the first week or so but ending with me being discharged feeling
refreshed. It's the only word I can think of to use. I had a positive outlook on life. I had goals. I actually felt happy to be alive. Focus on your treatment right now. No one else. Just you. Dedicate yourself to learning all you can. Be a sponge. If the program you'll be in is anything like the ones I've experienced, they'll include your family later on in family sessions and such. Only then should you veer your attention to their feelings about you.
After you're discharged, it's extremely important you keep connected with the program by hitting 12-Step programs. Even if you don't agree with them or don't want to follow them, go anyways. You need to be surrounded by others in your situation or worse in order for you to feel human.
I hope I helped some. Take care.