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Here is a frank, unaltered, not necessarily flattering full-length photo of me
will come back to give you that one.
Here is my height and weight
I am 5'4" and 116 lbs.
I feel confident with my body when...
I'm told I look good. Or I feel that I'm looking good. It's a mood thing for me.
I do not feel confident with my body when...
I'm in a bikini and feeling like my pale white skin hasn't seen the sun in months. When I look and see flabby bits or stretch marks.
I do/don't feel comfortable advising others on their body image
I feel comfortable with giving people compliments. I make an effort to do that because I think generally people don't hear them often enough. Often times I get a surprised look.
Sex makes me more comfortable/less comfortable with my body because...
less comfortable at times (because I worry about body parts I'm not as happy with) but when I'm in the middle of it I forget that. I can be shy so that includes my body at certain moments. I'd also like to be fitter than I am because I think it makes sex more energetic.
My family impacted my opinion on my body because...
They didn't. My family has always accepted me as I am. In high school I used to be rake thin and that was fine. After 18 I gained weight and that was fine too. They have never passed judgement on my figure, the most they have said is that I look well or healthy, or that I've lost weight or gained it.
My friends impacted my opinion on my body because...
Not through anything they've said. But all my friends have always been thin with a good shape, so I inevitably compare. I wish I had bigger boobs like her, a flatter stomach like her, toned arms like her, cool hair like hers...etc. But it's only ever a passing thing. I know they don't judge me that way. More like we appreciate each other's individual appearance and compliment each other when we feel like it.
I have/haven't wanted to be thinner
Yes, I have. I still do. But I'm pretty thin by most standards already. When I say thinner, I only mean on specific bits. Arms, stomach, love handles. I'd like a better shaped behind. I'd like my neck to be more toned. That's pretty much the extent of my dissatisfaction. Like genuinegirly, I also feel better when I'm thinner. Even if that's when people start worrying I'm looking too thin.
I have/haven't dealt with an eating disorder
No, I love my food far too much and I'm too lazy to be controlling that way. I'm only good at bossing others around.
I feel I would be happiest if I weighed ________. This is why.
I'm happy with what I weigh now. But I'd like to weigh 110 lbs again. It's a comfortable weight. But overall what I'd really like is to get more toned and fitter. Why? Because I'd feel more confident about my body and that's a good thing.
Weight doesn't impact my body image because ...
Of course it does, but only a bit. I think at the moment, any thoughts of weight are just in my head. Everyone tells me I'm thin. So I try to not let it affect me and put those thoughts aside. My last long-term boyfriend pretty much ruined my mental body image by making me feel unattractive and fat. I'm strong, but I let him affect me. Still healing those wounds.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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