Tilted Forum Project Discussion Community - View Single Post

ametc · 04-09-2009, 05:08 AM

I have so many things happening around me right now. Let's get to those first:

1. My boyfriend is going to move to Yuma at the end of next month. He was cheated on before by someone he had a long distance relationship with and so he doesn't want to stay with me if I'm not going to move with him.
2. I'm jobless and BROKE. I'm mooching off my family.
3. I need to go back to school and train in a pharmacy tech or registered nursing program.

4. and...... I had en emotional breakdown the other day and cut my wrist open pretty badly. Lost a lot of blood blahblah and I swear I'm not going to kill myself but my parents, my therapist, and my psychiatrist all want me to go to a mental health facility again.

I feel like this is becoming a regular thing. I have an emotional breakdown and I go to Aurora and feel refreshed and feel better for a few months.. then I break down again and the cycle begins all over again.

I'm almost 20.. and I'm starting to think I can't handle adult life. Like I'm a fucking spoiled ass stupid loser who can't handle dealing with everyday stress and responsibilities. I can.. but to some point.

This is why I got fired from my previous job. I broke down and cussed out my boss.

At the worst time, too. -_-

Anyways.. I want to move with my boyfriend but I'm broke and my car isn't mine. It's under my parents' names. They won't let me take it to Yuma.

My boyfriend says his family would take me in... but.. he hasn't even asked them.

I take psych meds and my insurance is dependent upon my parents. If I move, my insurance will be cut off and where will I get my meds?

If I go to a health facility.. I'll have less time with my boyfriend if I can't move with him.

I'm afraid to even try to get a job anymore. Everybody has turned me down.. and what if I do get a job? Would I even be able to handle it?

I don't know what to do. Help!

04-09-2009, 05:08 AM	#1 (permalink)
ametc Psycho	I dunno what to do (as usual) I have so many things happening around me right now. Let's get to those first: 1. My boyfriend is going to move to Yuma at the end of next month. He was cheated on before by someone he had a long distance relationship with and so he doesn't want to stay with me if I'm not going to move with him. 2. I'm jobless and BROKE. I'm mooching off my family. 3. I need to go back to school and train in a pharmacy tech or registered nursing program. 4. and...... I had en emotional breakdown the other day and cut my wrist open pretty badly. Lost a lot of blood blahblah and I swear I'm not going to kill myself but my parents, my therapist, and my psychiatrist all want me to go to a mental health facility again. I feel like this is becoming a regular thing. I have an emotional breakdown and I go to Aurora and feel refreshed and feel better for a few months.. then I break down again and the cycle begins all over again. I'm almost 20.. and I'm starting to think I can't handle adult life. Like I'm a fucking spoiled ass stupid loser who can't handle dealing with everyday stress and responsibilities. I can.. but to some point. This is why I got fired from my previous job. I broke down and cussed out my boss. At the worst time, too. -_- Anyways.. I want to move with my boyfriend but I'm broke and my car isn't mine. It's under my parents' names. They won't let me take it to Yuma. My boyfriend says his family would take me in... but.. he hasn't even asked them. I take psych meds and my insurance is dependent upon my parents. If I move, my insurance will be cut off and where will I get my meds? If I go to a health facility.. I'll have less time with my boyfriend if I can't move with him. I'm afraid to even try to get a job anymore. Everybody has turned me down.. and what if I do get a job? Would I even be able to handle it? I don't know what to do. Help!