You are addicted to porn, and you also get your thrills from hacking into sites.
What truly disturbs me, is your claim that, " I have completely retrained my fiance,
to not wanting sex."
Get thee to a therapist that deals specifically with this type of addiction.
He/she will guide you through the process of dealing with that elephant in the room,
in a non-judgemental professional way.
Couples counseling is going to be vital as well. (have your own therapist that you can build trust with, and talk about things you might not want to say in front of your fiance,
and have him/her recommend a different counselor for the couples counseling.
You fiance may want or need her own private therapist as well.)
There are other options out there, if not being able to afford all this help is an issue.
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