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As others have noted, you claiming to have turned your life around, and expecting the people you have hurt all these years to believe it, in less than a month is rather a stretch. I am also somewhat concerned by the tone of your letter. You seem to be bordering on stalking the girl. Knock it off. Harassing her 1) isn't going to get her back and 2) might get you arrested.
You seem to be at a stage where you are saying "OK, I admit that I fucked up, but since I admit it, there should be no consequences for what I did." That's not how it works. It is entirely possible that she fell out of love with you a long time ago (and who can blame her - what little girl grows up dreaming about marrying a drug addict?) and now that she's kicked you out of her life she is realizing how nice it is not to be with a drug addict anymore. It is entirely possible that your actions over the past years have caused you to permanently lose her. If so, accept it. Deal with it and look at it as a life lesson never to do that to anyone again, but do not harass her endlessly thinking that she will respond positively to it.
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