Thank you all very much for taking the time to reply... And to share your insights. JJ u hit the nail on the head with panic attacks and how we come to associate things with them. I was terrified to go back to the classroom where I had my first panin attack as I was sure it would happen again.
As for a little update- after starting Celexa I was sooo high and out of it for about 5 days or so. Not sure if that's normal, but it has since passed. I would have to say after about 2.5 weeks in the medication, u have noticed a mild decrease in my anxiety. Anti-depressants can take 4-6 weeks to work as I am told, so I am hoping my anxiety will be reduced even further. I have another therapy apointment on Tuesday, so I am looking forward to continuing that.
I know anti depressants are very controversial and everyone has their opinions. I personally don't for a minute think pills fix the problem... I was simply at a breaking point where I simply could not carry the stress an anxiety the way I was anymore... Cause I was literally above to have a nervous breakdown. I have tried yoga, massage, meditation, therapy and all sorts of stress and anxiety reducing things with no real relief.... So for now hopefully the medication will calm me enough to be able to function again like a normal person... While I continue with therapy to try and learn my triggers and how to deal with the problem.
Thanks again u guys... Your words are seriously a great comfort to me
