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Originally Posted by Zeraph
How do you cope? Sometimes I just feel so angry, at everyone. Such a deep anger from my core. Standard anger management techniques only subdue it temporarily. So far music is the best medicine. Anyone have any other ideas? Or anyone else feel this way sometimes?
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I don't want to belittle this in any way but can I ask how old you are? More out of curiosity since you kind of sound like I did when I was younger. Not saying that you are younger than me ... just that I was like that in my teens and early 20s.
I'll be 40 in a month ... I still feel angry sometimes.
When I was younger I felt like everyone was letting me down. I'd get so pissed off I'd just shut down completely. Then one day (it seems like it was just all of the sudden) I realized I was my own worst enemy. All that anger was just worthless; so I let it go. But not completely; the feeling is muted now but I still feel it. I work hard at pushing away negativity of any kind. I've burned bridges with people that I feel "bring me down." I don't hold grudges (it takes way too much energy to hold a grudge), and if any of my old friends needed my help I'd be there in a split second; but I don't hang out with them.
Playing music helps a lot. I play piano; but really any kind of creative outlet helps a lot. In fact, if I am stifled creatively (because of work or whatever) then I get really wound up and frustrated. This almost inevitably leads to depression unless I can find time to play (really play; not just tinkle around on a keyboard). When I'm working with my own band (which is on hold) or sitting in with someone else--especially musicians who I think are good--is the best. Just got back from a rehearsal for a CD-release show on Monday with a guitarist who I think is probably one of the best in Memphis.
Oh well, I'm rambling.