some of you may remember my thread from a few months ago about still being a virgin and dealing with the option of losing it ("losing"). for those who want a refresher...
http://www.tfproject.org/tfp/tilted-...ld-virgin.html
several months later and here i am and there it went. i have been casually dating this girl for a couple months, she knew i was a virgin and she didn't have a problem waiting until i was ready. she makes me comfortable, and we have a good physical chemistry. those 3 things are really what i was looking for. she also isn't terribly experienced, so i didn't feel like she was going to have any high expectations. anyway, she was over last night and i figured "no time like the present..."
it was cool. it wasn't mind blowing, but i didn't expect it to be. it doesn't take a genius to figure out *roughly* what it's going to feel like in there when your fingers and tongue have been there already. of course there's always a learning curve... it wasn't blase' either. i had a lot of fun, it was sex, after all.
i spent most of the time thinking about star wars and football. it's like the opposite of masturbating. when i'm taking care of my own business, i think about the most erotic thing i possibly can. i have no need for any foreplay or intimacy, i just want to get off; the less time wasted the better, and frankly my hand isn't doing most of the work, it's my brain. i figured if i was going to last more than 30 seconds with a girl then i was going to have to reverse the process. if i focus on her vagina on my penis and her body writhing in my hands i'm a goner for sure.
why star wars and football? i dunno, it wasn't a pre-determined plan to have to half-distract myself but i noticed pretty quick that it was going to be necessary. star wars was the first thing that came to mind. after a bit i felt that was a little to nerdy for someone who was now a non-virgin
so my mind shifted to football, having just earlier watched my alma-mater Texas Tech hand Texas a heaping of humble pie. after a little longer and a few more positions i decided i was through with that and i wanted to focus totally on the moment. lo and behold within probably a minute and a half i was done. she was happy. i was happy. all is well.
how do i feel? i feel fine. i feel like me. nothing feels different other than the fact that i've been thinking about it on and off all day. but that is the same thing that happened the first time i kissed a girl, the first time i got to peel a girl's shirt off, the first time a girl went down on me. i expected no different here.
so there you go. figured you kids would like to know (plus i believe abaya specifically requested an update)
