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Originally Posted by nerfgangsta
to be me would make you feel happy. you would love your job and see each day as an oppertunity to help and do good things. youd have love in your heart even tho your not in love with someone. people enjoy your company, you make them laugh. many girls dont notice you and when a girl does notice you you don't notice it. youve had crushes but are happy they have moved on and are happy. you have no interest in them anymore because your lookingt o the future. if they dont want a life with you than there must be something wrong with them. your the life of the party but always go home alone. your not ugly or fat but you arent a asshole or a prettyboy like your in a boy band or something so your not noticed.
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That made me smile.
I spend most of my day in a heightened version of myself, "Social Taylor" as I like to call him, because I go to a theatre school and a) it kind of comes out of me there, and b) it is expected. It is mostly bullshit and pretense but, c'est la vie, that is the filter with which I live my life. Oh, yes, I go to a theatre conservatory program with some of the best young actors in Canada. So I spend most of my day feeling inept or arrogant. That is being an actor so I'm used to it.
Relationship wise you would miss your girlfriend. She is in New Brunswick. You are also tempted by the really hot dancer upstairs everyday, the one who wants to have sex with you, but you are a wonderful person and have not given in, nor do you ever plan to.
Personally you would be tired most of the time, feel kind of incomplete, and at the same time very unmotivated. You would have an almost overwhelming sadness that doesn't quite have a rhyme or reason but you suspect it is probably something to do with your mother. Or Genetics. You are gaining weight which is bad but you are gaining friends which is good. You are funny and intelligent but people are always surprised when you are kind; not because they don't think you're sweet, but because it's genuine and people are used to you playing the stock character of "Social Taylor".
There is much more but, hey, we are all complex beings.