Originally Posted by noodle

I'm assuming you're in Canada?
Check with the Canuck Place and see if they have support or can refer you to support in your area.
Most hospitals in the US have a perinatal and antenatal loss support groups.
You're not alone... unfortunately.
Spend time with family. It's very important.
And there is NOTHING wrong with keeping ashes in your home, close to you.
I worked with a single mom that put her child's ashes inside a Build-A-Bear so that she could take him with her wherever she went and could feel part of him was still there.
Some wear ashes around their necks in a little vial.
Grief is rarely wrong. But it can be complicated. Good for you for reaching out.
Sorry, I'm a pediatric Hospice social worker and this is one of my soapboxes... making sure people realize that everyone grieves in their own way and helping connect families to groups that will ensure their grief remains healthy.
My thoughts go out to you.