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Old 09-21-2008, 05:34 PM   #8 (permalink)
anti fishstick
Post-modernism meets Individualism AKA the Clash
 
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And honestly, you cant hung out with a bunch of people...?!! Crowds are good for, ehhh... concerts, nights out, you only need 2-4 friends at a time to hold a good conversation!
heh. By "bunch of people" I did mean 3 people at a time.

Supple, this is really great advice... I am reading a book that challenges you to think of things you admire in people and why, and how you can take that and apply it to yourself. It's sort of similar to what you're saying. I just need to delve into this more. Writing is really helpful for me...

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Originally Posted by Supple Cow View Post
I would suggest using this thread for help in analyzing specific behaviors. For instance, why did you choose to train for a half marathon? Why does it symbolize independence for you? Where did you get the idea? When you picture yourself finishing, what else goes into that picture - what other qualities do you see in yourself that you don't possess now?

(Btw, it's nice to see you around here again. I'm not around too much myself, but I noticed.)
thanks for noticing! It's nice to be back.

as for the marathon, wow, I didn't even necessarily think of it as symbolizing independence to me, but I guess it is..! I hope to run a marathon, but a half marathon is reachable by Nov. 30, which is what I'm currently training for. I joined a running group in town because I've always felt more motivated to do things when I join groups or classes. It's hard to motivate myself and I often think of giving up prematurely. I guess marathon/half marathon symbolizes FINISHING to me, NOT giving up, doing an amazing feat that I never ever thought I could do. I never considered myself a "runner", it was always something I never thought I could be. I never consider myself a lot of things and that is very limiting. So to do something for myself that is amazing and impressive to me, and to claim being a RUNNER is a very independent and good feeling. I think that answers all your questions... basically, when I picture finishing, the idea is that I found something that I didn't quit on, and a race is a good definitive test of that process.. I feel if I could finish a marathon, well then maybe I can do anything... as for where I got the idea of running, I think I have always admired runners and athletes in general because I was not very athletic in high school. I admire the amazing feats your body-YOU-can accomplish and long distance running has always been the ultimate test of will for me.

As far as other qualities I think I possess that I don't currently see now, definitely creativity. and compassion. These are also all the things I admire in people... I don't see any of these things in myself, just like I don't necessarily see myself a "runner". I feel like less of a person that way, and I'm trying to figure myself out right now..
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