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Old 09-18-2008, 09:59 AM   #7 (permalink)
Iliftrocks
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Originally Posted by curiousbear View Post
Last night I watched Grizzly Man video. In the beginning I thought he is funny. Then I thought he is stupid. Then I thought he needed mental healthcare. Then I thought he is a criminal violating government rules and nature's law.

But after a while I just realized that I could relate myself to him. A very normal growing kid with self-esteem, good at school, good at sports, good at work. . . down the line at one point no longer the one that excels. Few failures in a row ruining the life. Getting in to bad habits, bad people, and even before you realize it... You are lost. No matter how hard you try, you could not pull yourself together.

Now you see the civilization around you, it sounds like you have to fight with it to live with it. You wonder whether you can runaway far a way some where to escape from it. Deep inside you have the persona with intelligence and diligence. But that helps only to manipulate your energy and anger to regulate it. But that is not enough to change your life. You are lost. It is too late to redefine what you and your life is.

But the sound persona inside still seeks to define purpose and meaning for your life. You falied, you are lost, you are nothing. But you crave for an identity, some place or thing where you belong. You badly want to beleive that you make a difference to something or someone...

Have you ever been on such a situation?
Have you ever been with people who were on such situation?
Have you ever considered to groom your children, nephew/neice, or students to prevent/handle such a possible situation in life when they grow in to adults?
Or show them examples with enough pictures, paper cutting and videos when they are young to help them understand how one could get lost in to undoable chaos?

A lot of that is how I feel about the world.... Luckily, I can talk myself out of most of the self-destructive stuff. I am trying to help my daughter see that there is more to life than sadness and despair. I kind of fake it. I figure kids take their queues from their parents and adults in general. If I don't panic and go into a tail-spin when the sh*t hits the fan, then she won't either.

Funny thing is, the feedback I get from her helps me to feel more positive about the rest of my life. Don't know what I'd do without her.
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