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it's been almost a week and i can't say things are a whole lot better, i still think about her a million times a day, but i've gone a week now without saying a word to her (other than a polite "hi" cause we work together)...but the feelings are still there pretty strong. some days it's the sex and "close time" i miss, and others it's just having her around to talk to and laugh with.
i'm really hate life when i put myself through the wringer of thinking about it (i'm a pretty "reflective" person, so i do a lot of thinking when i'm alone, which now happens to be a lot)
the work thing is killing me, cause i'm not doing my job the way i should be cause i know she's sitting right down the hall, and if i wanted to i could go and talk to her, but a very good friend of mine at work keeps reminding me that she's not going to say what i want to hear...
these are the times i wish i drank, cause i'd like to just numb my feelings for a couple of weeks (even though i know that's not the best way to handle it). all the shitty hours i've spent in the last week thinking about her are starting to add up and i'm exhausted...
(rant, rave, babble...just gotta get it out. thanks for listening, and again for the advice and understanding words so far...)
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