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A few things:
1) I don't necessarily agree it's all in your head. But you do have to try and rise above it.
2) I sense that your boyfriend is being dismissive of your concerns and trying to make it look like you are paranoid. I think you may have valid reasons for feeling the way you do. Even so, this does not mean that it will help you if you continue to insist with him. Never ask anyone to choose between you and their family, because ultimately, you are likely to lose.
3) If you love him and think you can overcome this at all, then you must stick with it. Try and be the bigger person as much as you can. Talk things out with the people who are antagonizing you if necessary. If the moment is right, a good vent could do wonders.
4) Accept that this is your boyfriend's family and that it could never improve. If you think that is something you can live with, and at least put on a brave face for family meetings, then you'll be alright.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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