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MM, I think we are actually very similar but I am working relentlessly at moving past Tpop. These physical feelings are the tip of the iceberg. The sticky love mess has me bereft in general, but these overwhelming physical feelings are too new and too much.
You know when I was with Tpop I would often feel this embarrassing-to- admit swooning thing. I think I referred to it in another thread as the fainting goat syndrome. I remember feeling that way at few other times in my life - the first time I was kissed, a few times with Todd, and almost every time I saw Tpop. It is physical, it is emotional, it is mental, it is love. I am way too aware of it.
It is chemical. As Snowy said it is almost like a drug. Seeing that tall man last night had me feeling all loungy and melty. Seriously. If that man last night had been alone I would have taken his arm just for the pleasure. I would have draped myself over him in the dark of the theater.
Yep, its chemical. Im quitting the smoking of Tpop and Im burnin up with fever.
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As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons...be cheerful; strive for happiness - Desiderata
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