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Xerxys · 05-16-2008, 11:34 PM

I'm fuckin' bitter as well!!

I don't know what the hell's wrong with me, well, I do but I don't know how I got this way, no, wait, I do.

Here's the skinny, I recently got a car (Finally!!!) and I was thinking all the stuff I would be able to do, you know, got out, have fun, but that didn't happen. I got a job but I'm still broke, cant go out, cant have fun, don't have any fuckin' friends!!

This particular excerpt should be in tilted sexuality, the addicted to whacking it thread!! Two months ago, I started downloading porn and that gave me some sense of relief, you know, I got rid of all that tension, then I was fine again. Then I found myfreepaysite.com!! Everything went downhill by then. As fast as I found it, I was addicted to porn, now I'm cold turkeying myself, but the thing is, the only thing I want more than to rub one out right now, is to shagg!! I want only to fuck, then sleep, exactly in that order. Rip her panties off, do it, then fall asleep. The rest can be done in the morning, the dinner and all!!

I have absolutely no one to blame all this on except myself!! I cant help hating myself for what I've become, I've started being a stoner again, I cant remember anything, I hardly finish projects, all this had been taxing heavily my self esteem!! Had being the operative word, I have none left!!

I work at customer service, I have no idea what will happen. I usually pride myself at not jeopardising anything that is responsible for my income, but this has started spilling over into aspects of my life.

I wonder how I'm gonna get through this, money always makes me happy but after this paycheck, I'll still be broke after expenses!! Gash, Damn, what have I gotten myself into!! Not only are my hormones betraying me, my Attention Deficit Disorder is going to wind me up into a bigger mess!! Thanks for reading my rant, If you came down this far, Thankyou!! Any suggestions, advice, insults, will be graciously appreciated. Not to be preemptive here but you should know, tough love will have absolutely no effect on me, I'm disturbed like that!!

05-16-2008, 11:34 PM	#1 (permalink)
Xerxys Junkie Location: My head.	Seeing As We're on the subject........ I'm fuckin' bitter as well!! I don't know what the hell's wrong with me, well, I do but I don't know how I got this way, no, wait, I do. Here's the skinny, I recently got a car (Finally!!!) and I was thinking all the stuff I would be able to do, you know, got out, have fun, but that didn't happen. I got a job but I'm still broke, cant go out, cant have fun, don't have any fuckin' friends!! This particular excerpt should be in tilted sexuality, the addicted to whacking it thread!! Two months ago, I started downloading porn and that gave me some sense of relief, you know, I got rid of all that tension, then I was fine again. Then I found myfreepaysite.com!! Everything went downhill by then. As fast as I found it, I was addicted to porn, now I'm cold turkeying myself, but the thing is, the only thing I want more than to rub one out right now, is to shagg!! I want only to fuck, then sleep, exactly in that order. Rip her panties off, do it, then fall asleep. The rest can be done in the morning, the dinner and all!! I have absolutely no one to blame all this on except myself!! I cant help hating myself for what I've become, I've started being a stoner again, I cant remember anything, I hardly finish projects, all this had been taxing heavily my self esteem!! Had being the operative word, I have none left!! I work at customer service, I have no idea what will happen. I usually pride myself at not jeopardising anything that is responsible for my income, but this has started spilling over into aspects of my life. I wonder how I'm gonna get through this, money always makes me happy but after this paycheck, I'll still be broke after expenses!! Gash, Damn, what have I gotten myself into!! Not only are my hormones betraying me, my Attention Deficit Disorder is going to wind me up into a bigger mess!! Thanks for reading my rant, If you came down this far, Thankyou!! Any suggestions, advice, insults, will be graciously appreciated. Not to be preemptive here but you should know, tough love will have absolutely no effect on me, I'm disturbed like that!!