Xerxys

I'm fuckin' bitter as well!!

I don't know what the hell's wrong with me, well, I do but I don't know how I got this way, no, wait, I do.

Here's the skinny, I recently got a car (Finally!!!) and I was thinking all the stuff I would be able to do, you know, got out, have fun, but that didn't happen. I got a job but I'm still broke, cant go out, cant have fun, don't have any fuckin' friends!!

This particular excerpt should be in tilted sexuality, the addicted to whacking it thread!! Two months ago, I started downloading porn and that gave me some sense of relief, you know, I got rid of all that tension, then I was fine again. Then I found myfreepaysite.com!! Everything went downhill by then. As fast as I found it, I was addicted to porn, now I'm cold turkeying myself, but the thing is, the only thing I want more than to rub one out right now, is to shagg!! I want only to fuck, then sleep, exactly in that order. Rip her panties off, do it, then fall asleep. The rest can be done in the morning, the dinner and all!!

I have absolutely no one to blame all this on except myself!! I cant help hating myself for what I've become, I've started being a stoner again, I cant remember anything, I hardly finish projects, all this had been taxing heavily my self esteem!! Had being the operative word, I have none left!!

I work at customer service, I have no idea what will happen. I usually pride myself at not jeopardising anything that is responsible for my income, but this has started spilling over into aspects of my life.

I wonder how I'm gonna get through this, money always makes me happy but after this paycheck, I'll still be broke after expenses!! Gash, Damn, what have I gotten myself into!! Not only are my hormones betraying me, my Attention Deficit Disorder is going to wind me up into a bigger mess!! Thanks for reading my rant, If you came down this far, Thankyou!! Any suggestions, advice, insults, will be graciously appreciated. Not to be preemptive here but you should know, tough love will have absolutely no effect on me, I'm disturbed like that!!

dlish

see a dr.. or a shrink..

if all else fails.. maybe go see a prostitute if all you want to do is fuck

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Hain

Buy a punching bag, no pun intended. Seriously, channel your frustrations into ten minutes of well thrown punches, twice daily for two weeks, then once daily there after.

UPDATE: Or you can go the hillbilly route and make one like my friend did... was far cheaper and lasted just a long.

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Stop pitying yourself. The rest will follow.

If that proves too difficult of a task, then a professional to confide in is probably your best bet.

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Xerxys

Thanx for all that. I definitely wont let it go as far as getting a shrink or prostitute!! What's wrong is I'm at the stage where I've tried everything people who are normal do and it hasn't worked. I'm stuck, I've not yet tried the punching bag thing but I'll definitely give it a shot, maybe joining the gym or something!!

I'm still, I like to believe, together, just very angry at my brain, body, and I think somethings gotta give sooner than later!! What I don't understand is, why do people, or rather why did I, drive myself, to this stage, Other than the obvious things, not go out to meet people, go on some man dates, watch the football game, what the hell else did I do wrong!! How can non issue things like these make me so desperately crave human contact??

What the hell do normal people do to meet friends??? Has anyone ever been this low??

Manic_Skafe

I was caught in a similar funk for quite some time and while I feel I may have had less of an excuse for it than others who don't have the fortune of living in a city where something is always going on - the problem and it's causes are still rather universal.

It's been said a million times in threads just like these:

Go out there and do something. Go meet people who have similar interests and start doing what makes you happy. Stop using the weed, the job and porn as a crutch. Start with the small things that you have the most control over and start changing them for the better.

Set goals and dates and you'll eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel. A professional therapist may help you formulate a strategy but the answers will have to come from you.

Good luck.

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genuinegirly

Live and learn.

Sounds like you have a lot to work through.

Just keep on at those goals.
- Show up each day for work.
- Always be on time, or 5-10 minutes early. It goes a long way to gaining respect from supervisors.
- Don't tell anyone, but start looking for another job that pays more.
- Jack off once in the morning, once or twice at night each day and call it good. If you're horny enough, you won't need porn.
- Avoid getting into a relationship until you have worked through your concerns and gain confidence in yourself.

Punching bags are incredibly stress-relieving. Only a few gyms have punching bags, so be sure to ask if they have one before you blow some cash on a membership.

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Willravel

I blast "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley in my car when I'm in a foul mood. It brings me joy.

match000

Off topic: how did he ever get famous? in his video he looks like a total pasty dweeb.. with this ridiculous looking dance sway while he sings..

To the OP: what do u mean addicted to porn? Do you mean you keep downloading it nonstop? I think its normal for most guys to look at porn, as long as you dont waste hours and hours surfing it and downloading it.

I mean, using porn to masturbate takes what -- 5-10 mins? That's not too long outta your day, even if u do that 2-3 times a day.

Willravel

The song is quite catchy, which is why he was famous 20 years ago. Now? It's the extreme deep voice to little white kid ratio. And rickrolling.

match000

lol yea, its quite incongruent lol. he just looks like one of those nerds who would get beat up..

Xerxys

Stop Telling my life story!!

Anyway, I listen to Jem - Just a Ride. My funk is wearing off, I went out tonight. It was fun, I like people now!!

Using the job as a crutch was actually quite accurate, the reason I hated myself in the first place was because I wound up exactly where I thought I would fully knowing the consequences and now I (painfully) learn I wasn't prepared!!

I no longer have the crippling urge to fuck, as I had put it, not that I got laid or anything, I just realized that women are people too... who would have known!! This wasn't a slight against women, just a very bad month!! But as I said, I like people now, I'm definitely going to get my act together, I have to, my f***ing job needs me to be happy!!