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Hah funny. My latest ex just recently got engaged to be married. To a girl he's only been with a year and a half. Who he got together with pretty much straight out of our relationship ending. We were together 3 years.
It bugged me a little. Didn't expect that from the person I knew, but he's obviously not that person anymore. So, good for him I guess. I just wondered at the time, why him and not me? Because he really hurt me.
Not that I'm thinking of rushing to marry someone...I just wish I could stop thinking that maybe, just maybe, I'm the problem.
What can I say, I feel like I'm in a cheap chick flick movie, but that's life.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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