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Not to be a downer Strange but that is often the case. It is something, nagging, every once and while, etc for most of your life. Then it becomes two weeks. Then it's a month. The problem is, you begin to not see the difference and when people bring it up you'll have the same attitude: "It's no big deal".
What scares me about your post isn't you describing your problems it's you shrugging off the potential problems. "I don't make big decisions or do things based on the feelings I have"; it might come to the point where you won't see the line, like I said earlier, and you won't be able to properly judge what state you are in. You'll defend your decisions but it will be completely biased by your illness. You'll begin to push people away through your decisions or lack thereof. It's scary.
I realize right away that you might have some reservations about seeing a specialist or even a doctor about it because you seem to have two loved ones with the same problem. It seems to me that maybe because you see their problem you might be scared to admit you might suffer the same way sometimes. Which brings me to another point; you postponing this is most likely based completely on these bad patches because you might be subconsciously frightened of the outcome.
Here is the thing. The worst thing that can happen is you are prescribed a drug that doesn't fit your lifestyle; it is however an easy fix as all you have to do is call up your GP and he'll find you another. It can be hit or miss, and it can be frustrating (trust me), but it is well worth finding something that can help you live a life without that burden (trust me again). My life was completely thrown into limbo when it hit me three years ago and I've recovered but life has certainly changed. You don't need that, trust me. I keep saying that but since I started taking my meds my word is worth a lot more.
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