Jealousy is an emotion I never fully understood. It serves no good purpose and expressing it ONLY leads to inevitable unhappiness. This is not to say that I've never felt or expressed jealousy, I used to allow myself to get absolutely SICK in it, so I can certainly relate to how it makes me feel .. and upon many years of reflection and consideration, how it made me look. I just never understood why I would allow myself to be tortured by an emotion I have the ability to control. Eventually, I learned to simply not allow it to control me or my actions and have essentially trained myself to just not get jealous.
As the saying goes, "if you love something set it free, and if it was meant to be yours it will come back" .. or some such. If she doesn't love you enough to be loyal .. she isn't worth being jealous over to begin with.
As for not telling her how you feel, this is a terrible step in the wrong direction. If you want the relationship to work .. whatever kind of relationship it is or ever will be .. you have to have open, honest communication for it to be truly successful.
hopefully that's not too little, too late
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You don't have bad luck, the reason bad things happen to you is because you're a dumbass !!
Dinner $50
Drinks $30
Motel $40
Finding out she swallows -
PRICELESS!!!
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