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Suzz04 · 02-05-2008, 04:04 AM

Based on my experiences, I'm almost afraid to post in fear of what would be said, but I feel I should at least say something. Please don't judge me harshly for choosing medication to help my life, it wasn't my first choice. When you've tried everything to change your life for several years without success, it's time to turn to a doctor for help. I spent 10 years trying to figure out and help myself.

I'm 31 now. Since July 2005, I've been on medication for bipolar, anxiety and depression. For the years prior, from about 1993 to 2005, I spent alot of time trying to figure out what was wrong with me, talking to therapists, doctors, time searching through information on the internet. I tried alot of different things before I finally told my doctor I wasn't having any success at getting out of my problems.

She sent me to one pyscharist who did not attempt to help me or explain what was my issues. My doctor then sent me to a second pyscharist, whom gave me a medical diagnosis. I had never considered bipolar to be part of my problem.

Now, for those that are against medication. No, medication is not for everyone. Not all have chemical imbalances. True imbalances are very few and hard to truly diagnos to give a actual legit reason.

Whenever someone is going through these things, it's best to get a medical diagonis. Then go from there is seeking what will help. Let medicine be your last option. It was mine last choice.

I've been on a few different medicines since 2005. In 2006, after being on a set of medicines, I decided that I was doing great and quit taking them. I was doing very well til December.

By January 2007, due to stress of the holidays, bills, relationship and car problems, I had a nervous breakdown and attempted suicide. I voluntarly went to my pyscharist and told him. I was given a choice to check myself in to the hospital or go home to try and do it on my own.

Given that I had a 11 year old daughter at home, I chose to go to the hospital for a week. Granted, I never want to go back again. My medicince was changed, I had all the blood work and other things done. By the time I went home, I felt like I was a normal person. I was still depressed but, I had just lost a relationship of 5 years. I did later meet a wonderful gentleman online that understood my condition and supports me when my times are bad. We're going to be married next year.

Do I feel that I'm condemned to medicine for life? Yes. I have tried to come off the medicine on a few times, with my psycharist's help. But, I relaspe each time. No, I do not have it my frame of mind that I am doomed. I hope for a life to come to not take medication. I try for a life of medication. My "condemned" life to medicine is by choice. For the safety of myself, my daughter, and family, I choose to ensure that I am "normal". I'm doing great considering what I was before. Severe mood swings, lashing out, unintentional rage, depression, many suicidal thoughts, attacks on my daughter for very little things for no reason.

As some said, medicine can be used for a band-aid. You may just need some help to get yourself to functioning right. But, I do have to say that for the sake of yourself, if not others, at least go talk to your doctor for some guidance. They know alot and can help you get started in the right direction to get you back on track.

And .... quoted for truth, from onesnowyowl, we all fall down.

02-05-2008, 04:04 AM	#25 (permalink)
Suzz04 Crazy Location: Virginia	Based on my experiences, I'm almost afraid to post in fear of what would be said, but I feel I should at least say something. Please don't judge me harshly for choosing medication to help my life, it wasn't my first choice. When you've tried everything to change your life for several years without success, it's time to turn to a doctor for help. I spent 10 years trying to figure out and help myself. I'm 31 now. Since July 2005, I've been on medication for bipolar, anxiety and depression. For the years prior, from about 1993 to 2005, I spent alot of time trying to figure out what was wrong with me, talking to therapists, doctors, time searching through information on the internet. I tried alot of different things before I finally told my doctor I wasn't having any success at getting out of my problems. She sent me to one pyscharist who did not attempt to help me or explain what was my issues. My doctor then sent me to a second pyscharist, whom gave me a medical diagnosis. I had never considered bipolar to be part of my problem. Now, for those that are against medication. No, medication is not for everyone. Not all have chemical imbalances. True imbalances are very few and hard to truly diagnos to give a actual legit reason. Whenever someone is going through these things, it's best to get a medical diagonis. Then go from there is seeking what will help. Let medicine be your last option. It was mine last choice. I've been on a few different medicines since 2005. In 2006, after being on a set of medicines, I decided that I was doing great and quit taking them. I was doing very well til December. By January 2007, due to stress of the holidays, bills, relationship and car problems, I had a nervous breakdown and attempted suicide. I voluntarly went to my pyscharist and told him. I was given a choice to check myself in to the hospital or go home to try and do it on my own. Given that I had a 11 year old daughter at home, I chose to go to the hospital for a week. Granted, I never want to go back again. My medicince was changed, I had all the blood work and other things done. By the time I went home, I felt like I was a normal person. I was still depressed but, I had just lost a relationship of 5 years. I did later meet a wonderful gentleman online that understood my condition and supports me when my times are bad. We're going to be married next year. Do I feel that I'm condemned to medicine for life? Yes. I have tried to come off the medicine on a few times, with my psycharist's help. But, I relaspe each time. No, I do not have it my frame of mind that I am doomed. I hope for a life to come to not take medication. I try for a life of medication. My "condemned" life to medicine is by choice. For the safety of myself, my daughter, and family, I choose to ensure that I am "normal". I'm doing great considering what I was before. Severe mood swings, lashing out, unintentional rage, depression, many suicidal thoughts, attacks on my daughter for very little things for no reason. As some said, medicine can be used for a band-aid. You may just need some help to get yourself to functioning right. But, I do have to say that for the sake of yourself, if not others, at least go talk to your doctor for some guidance. They know alot and can help you get started in the right direction to get you back on track. And .... quoted for truth, from onesnowyowl, we all fall down. __________________ Quantum Cat Theory: Upon hearing the sound of a can being opened, it becomes possible for a cat to travel faster than the speed of light.