Hi all.
Before I start out, it might be good to know that I'm a 20-year old virgin and never even had a girlfriend before. I just never really met a lot of girls and never really felt the need to have a girlfriend before. So mind you, I'm totally inexperienced in every aspect of the female mind/behaviour/...
But now I'm in a bit of doubt about a girl in my class I started to like quite a lot, so here's the deal:
She's been in my class for almost three years now, but only at the end of last school year did we start talking. I started to like her, but then with a two month holiday, kinda forgot about her (didn't had her on msn so I couldn't reach her).
Then, at the start of the next school year (almost six months ago now) she asks me if I'd like to work with her on a school project, which I happily accepted. During the next months we start chatting quite a lot on msn and work really well together. So I start to like her now more than ever. On a two day conference (about two months ago) which we had to attend for school, we basically were sitting and walking together all the time and with that event and the weeks thereafter I get the idea that she really likes me too (she's been giving me those stares occasionally and starts chatting (msn, that is) almost every evening, amongst other small signs (or well, I think they're signs :d)).
Now, since about two weeks, I'm getting the idea that she's trying to ignore me or so. Well, not really ignore me, but I feel like she's dropping her interest in me. We just started working on a large-scale project for school in groups and there's a guy working in her group in whom she seems to take more interest for the moment. Usually, she starts a conversation on msn every evening after school, but not since last week.
Now, I'm probably just jealous or something, but I really hate to see her paying more attention to him than to me. I really thought something was starting to grow between us, but now that hope seems all lost. She is, however, a very social person, while I'm usually very shy and silent. So the way she acts might just be very normal for her.
To make things more complicated, she has a boyfriend whom she's been dating for over one year. I knew this from the beginning though.
I've been playing with the idea of letting her know how I feel about her, but I'm afraid I might scare her off. Two months ago, we decided to work together for our internship, which starts in about 6 weeks, and I don't want us to feel akward working together or work bad because of what I've told her. Also, with her having a boyfriend, I'm not sure if I should bring it up.
So now I'm a bit lost. Am I just imagining things here, or is/was there really something going on between us? And do you people think I should let her know how I feel or not?
Well, that's quite a read. Even if it turns out to be nothing, I'm still happy I was able to write all this down. It makes me feel a little better
