former newt

if anyone read my post in tilted life, you'll know that my relationship was then on the brink of failure. well failure happened, and now i'm more than ready to move on.

i need sex. because that relationship was getting more and more difficult, we hadn't done anything for a long time. translated: i am pent up and need a release.

the med school i go to is like high school. everyone in the whole damn place finds out about anything you do. gossip whores, cocky guys, the works. this place is a huge drag because no one is mature enough to respect others' privacy. also, every single party i go to is basically a night of drinking with everyone in the anatomy lab...seems that once you go to grad school, you are in a zoo and can't meet anyone new. so i can't really just hookup with someone without everyone my ex knows finding out.

while i am ready to move on, i know she is hurting, and i care enough about her that i don't want her to have to hear that im looking to hook up with other girls. im only 20 so i can't really go to bars or anything...

ill own up to the fact that i have zero game. and i don't have the time to go hunting and honing my "game" to find hookups.

so what the fuck do i do now? im not looking for any commitments at all. im pretty sick of the commitment thing right now. all i want are hookups.

call me immature, but if you've put up with almost a year and a half of a girl who hates herself and regrets you for everything you have, of a girl who fights with you constantly, and withholds sex from you for 4 months, you'd be pretty goddamn desperate too.