Mafawkin' A! I know all about this thread. Just about everybody here in this place does, too. We've all had the knife in our back, the grenade in our hearts, etc. It's a messy world out there. A necessity... you cannot have love without agony, happiness without despair. Eating shit for a year makes the first real food you get to taste awesome... even if it's a Hungry Man TV dinner.
If there is one thing I've really learned from the great atom smasher philosophy that is the anti-solipsist:
Pain (anger/worry/fear) is a great source of arrogance. Assumptions (the mother of all fuck-ups)! We assume we are alone. We assume we are only one that feels these things. We assume that we are the first to encounter this problem, the first to get over it, the first to survive it and better ourselves for it, the first to be crushed by it and destroy ourselves with it.
Anxiety is like Baskin Robbins, OP... the 31 flavors are played out. The quicker you realize that you aren't feeling unique things and get over the weird xenophobia, the better you'll be. Laugh at yourself, acknowledge your fears and weaknesses, and for-fuck's-sake... one foot in front of the other.
Don't lay down and die behind the eyes. Running or crawling... forward motion.
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"Death and sleep are the only two places you are truly alone while you're human."
Everywhere else? You choose to be alone through action or inaction.
It surprises me how much action is required to remain physically alone sometimes.
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Here, this makes sense:
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Alright... uhm, it is very easy to have some kind of shitty deal happen to you and turn it around and just be a rotten son of a bitch, or daughter of a bitch... or whatever... towards everyone around you.
Oh well, ya know, you're walking down the street and an assassin came out and blew your leg off, okay, you're a little upset about that and so you're a rotten piece of shit to all your friends because of all the bad luck you've suffered. Well, what's even better than that is letting all of your trials and your tribulations and all the shit that damn near killed you, and all your rough times turn you into a stronger person. And strength isn't like just being more mean... strength is being more kind. And that's why you see like, a guy who's been to prison maybe, he's been through the wringer there and instead of just all going like: "Hey, muthafucker!" he's just like: "Hey, man... how ya doin'?" 'cause he doesn't have to be yelling and screaming and gettin' in your face 'cause he's already been locked down in the hole in the middle of nowhere for 30 straight days, so his experience kinda broadened him, made him a little kinder.
Just remember that you should take all the bad shit that happens to you and let it strengthen you so you can turn around and be so much cooler for it instead of more fucked up for it, because if you don't you might end up just destroying yourself before you even get along down the road."
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The Reverend speak'th! Sure, you can be scared... but don't close your eyes.