Hyacinthe

It really sounds like you're not ready to be married, might have nothing to do with her.

Fact of the matter is since you agreed to marry her you say

If you feel that way you shouldn't be getting married because if it continues you'll grow to resent her for it and that will ruin everything.

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"Her emotions were clear waters. You could see the scarring and pockmarks at the bottom of the pool, but it was just a part of her landscape – the consequences of others’ actions in which she claimed no part."