Thanks everybody for all of your input. I think I just needed to rant. I have felt this way for a while but then would always feel guilty and think maybe its me or just feel sorry for her when she acts like that bc her life is bad sometimes, and some days she can be cool about what I am doing. I also know that there are things in my life that she is glad she did not go through and some things she would not feel jealous of and so I always felt conflicted on the matter. I also notice that I am the only one I think she really does this with and I think its bc out of many of her close friends we have gone into similar fields and we talk the most and I am an easy target bc I let her do this. She knows better than to talk to her colleagues at work like that so she knows better than to give me a hard time. Some people in my family and various friends have said she is just jealous and bitter about the direction of her life. Either way I needed an objective opinion from people that do not know me, I guess to help me convince myself that it is not all in my head. I think that since she is the only friend I have that does this, I knew all along something was just not right. I havent talked to her in a while and I think that she knows to leave me alone bc she is more than aware when she is just plain being a bitch and I dont want to deal with her stupid attitude. I am going throgh a major change in my life, I dont think that I am better than anyone so that is why it is sometimes hard for me to let old friendships go even when they are not the best ones. I guess its already starting and will eventually happen over time especially since I am about to move far away. Sometimes people just drift off I guess.....thanks again you all are great! I am glad that I came here
