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Meditrina · 08-29-2007, 06:45 AM

I am very happy that today is my last day working until 4:30, it will be so nice to be home at 3pm every day. However, it also means that I will not be able to walk with T at lunch anymore (I don't get a lunch break when I work 8:30-2:30). This makes me very sad. I am going to miss our walks/talks. Her and I talk about everything and it is definitely a two-way conversation. It's not that I won't see her every day, we work together. But we cannot talk like we do at lunch. Maybe this is the push I need to invite her over to the house or go out with her outside of work. I just need to take the initiative and be brave. Will she care that my house is not spotless? Will she care that the kids have toys out? I think not, but the worry is still there. It is this worry that prevents me from inviting friends over to the house. This is part of my wallflowerness. I'd rather not put myself out there for all to see. In fact, I was going to put this in my journal, but took the chance and posted it here - maybe there are others who feel the same way but are afraid to say so. I know I was.

How do I get over this? Does anyone else feel the way I do? How did or do you get over it?

08-29-2007, 06:45 AM	#1 (permalink)
Meditrina Junkie Location: LI,NY	Nervous about having friends over the house I am very happy that today is my last day working until 4:30, it will be so nice to be home at 3pm every day. However, it also means that I will not be able to walk with T at lunch anymore (I don't get a lunch break when I work 8:30-2:30). This makes me very sad. I am going to miss our walks/talks. Her and I talk about everything and it is definitely a two-way conversation. It's not that I won't see her every day, we work together. But we cannot talk like we do at lunch. Maybe this is the push I need to invite her over to the house or go out with her outside of work. I just need to take the initiative and be brave. Will she care that my house is not spotless? Will she care that the kids have toys out? I think not, but the worry is still there. It is this worry that prevents me from inviting friends over to the house. This is part of my wallflowerness. I'd rather not put myself out there for all to see. In fact, I was going to put this in my journal, but took the chance and posted it here - maybe there are others who feel the same way but are afraid to say so. I know I was. How do I get over this? Does anyone else feel the way I do? How did or do you get over it? __________________ "Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles." ~Alex Karras