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TiltedOne · 08-13-2007, 05:36 AM

Hi I've been lurking here for awhile and just decided to join up. I feel this is a sensible place to talk about things and just good all around.

I've been dating my current gf for 6 years. I'm 22 shes 20. Our entire relationship has been rocky due to outside things *basically her parents not wanting her to date and treating me like crap unjustly* However things on that front has improved somewhat slightly.

Now here is my problem. When she started college and went away she kinda pushed me away. To the point where her friends and such came first before me even to the point where I woudlnt speak to her for a month at a time. That completely upset me. My friends consoled me but one person in particular really helped me through it. I ended up liking her and she ended up liking me too and things only got worse once my friend started dorming at my school. I fell for her, hard. All my friends knew it too but it was kinda kept on the hush since within our group of friends includes her brother which is one of my best friends *yes the plot thickens* Its partly because of that reason that I didn't pursue it and tried to work it out with my gf.

Ever since then things have gotten somewhat better but there is always an underlying problem with my current gf and it takes a toll on me. I try to stick around because she always says *I dont really have anyone because my parents kept me away from everything but at least your here and you stayed* and it makes me feel like crap because I realize now I stayed with her for the completely wrong reasons. I WANTED to go with the other girl but felt loyal/obligated to at least give my gf a chance.

Time has passed and I still talk to my friend on a regular basis. Although my gf does not want me to because I was honest about how I felt about the other chick and explained to her how it went down but assured her nothing happened. However, I can't seem to get over this other girl and honestly I'm not sure if I want to. I find myself just going through the motions with my current gf sometimes and I hate the fact that I can't just genuinely be happy with her because she is a good person. I dont know how to resolve this. I'm thinking I should break up with my gf but I know for a fact that she really does not have anyone right now and I'm everything she's leaning on and I feel like me just pushing her to the side for someone else is just wrong wrong wrong.

My head hurts.

08-13-2007, 05:36 AM	#1 (permalink)
TiltedOne Upright	I'm taken but... Hi I've been lurking here for awhile and just decided to join up. I feel this is a sensible place to talk about things and just good all around. I've been dating my current gf for 6 years. I'm 22 shes 20. Our entire relationship has been rocky due to outside things basically her parents not wanting her to date and treating me like crap unjustly However things on that front has improved somewhat slightly. Now here is my problem. When she started college and went away she kinda pushed me away. To the point where her friends and such came first before me even to the point where I woudlnt speak to her for a month at a time. That completely upset me. My friends consoled me but one person in particular really helped me through it. I ended up liking her and she ended up liking me too and things only got worse once my friend started dorming at my school. I fell for her, hard. All my friends knew it too but it was kinda kept on the hush since within our group of friends includes her brother which is one of my best friends yes the plot thickens Its partly because of that reason that I didn't pursue it and tried to work it out with my gf. Ever since then things have gotten somewhat better but there is always an underlying problem with my current gf and it takes a toll on me. I try to stick around because she always says I dont really have anyone because my parents kept me away from everything but at least your here and you stayed and it makes me feel like crap because I realize now I stayed with her for the completely wrong reasons. I WANTED to go with the other girl but felt loyal/obligated to at least give my gf a chance. Time has passed and I still talk to my friend on a regular basis. Although my gf does not want me to because I was honest about how I felt about the other chick and explained to her how it went down but assured her nothing happened. However, I can't seem to get over this other girl and honestly I'm not sure if I want to. I find myself just going through the motions with my current gf sometimes and I hate the fact that I can't just genuinely be happy with her because she is a good person. I dont know how to resolve this. I'm thinking I should break up with my gf but I know for a fact that she really does not have anyone right now and I'm everything she's leaning on and I feel like me just pushing her to the side for someone else is just wrong wrong wrong. My head hurts.