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There are things said that are later regretted, and then there is abuse. I'd venture to say that all that you've been through recently is emotional and verbal abuse.
I'd also guess that he was telling you you're ugly just to hurt you. I wouldn't focus on the words he said to hurt you, but instead evaluate the intention. He wanted to hurt you. He wanted you to cry. He wanted to feel more powerful than you. And this seems to have turned into a habit, yes? A persistent pattern of behavior.
That's what I don't like.
My advice is don't invest more time in this relationship that is only spiraling downwards. You don't seem to be reaping any benefit from this any more. Get away from him, live your life, work on your insecurities (by the way, I don't think you sound like a door mat at all!), and let him work on himself. By himself.
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"Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath.
At night, the ice weasels come." -
Matt Groening
My goal? To fulfill my potential.
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