I don't really feel that bringing the baby into this world at this point in my life would be the best thing in the world for any of us (the baby, myself, and the father). Downright and straight to the point, I'm too young, too irresponsible, and too unstable with my life and with the relationship with the father. We've only been dating for about 5 months. Half the reason that I'm choosing this is because the father is not ready either. It's not that he hasn't got a job or isn't financially stable and whatnot (that's hardly the case)...I just know that emotionally he's not ready to dedicate himself to a child if he's still not ready to dedicate himself to me. I'm fortunate enough that I won't actually have to go through surgery - I'm going to be taking a pill that will cause me to miscarry. I don't think I could actually go through with it if they had to surgically do anything to remove it.
I'm sad. This was not how I ever imagined my first pregnancy to be. And I know that the next one, no matter when it happens, will happen - 9 month term and everything.
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