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Time for a bit of Martian's patented wisdom.
Dude, the girl is messed up. I don't mean that in a derogatory way, I'm just calling it how I see it. She's in a long distance relationship and is engaged to be married. Some other dude's ring is on her finger and she never gets to see him. How do you think that makes her feel? Is loneliness a possibility?
Meanwhile, here you are. You're around her all the time since you live with her and she knows you dig her (they pretty much always do). Those two factors combined with loneliness and cold feet/second thoughts about the engagement make for a dangerous situation.
The word love gets bandied about a lot. And maybe you do love this girl. I'm not you, I don't know. I find it more likely, however, that you're infatuated/in lust with her and have gotten confused, quite possibly due to the proximity and the roommate relationship complicating the issue. Either way, this is a situation that you probably don't need to be in. My advice to you is that when you leave you give her your contact info and tell her to keep in touch. After that if it was meant to be it'll happen, but I wouldn't hold my breath.
Oh, and she probably does remember the conversation you had when she was drunk. It's just less awkward if she pretends she doesn't.
Trust me, my man. As hard as it may seem to walk away from this situation, it really is your best option.
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I wake up in the morning more tired than before I slept
I get through cryin' and I'm sadder than before I wept
I get through thinkin' now, and the thoughts have left my head
I get through speakin' and I can't remember, not a word that I said
- Ben Harper, Show Me A Little Shame
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