I understand your problem amnesia620. I often wonder if sometimes I'm the square peg trying to fit a round hole as well. I have friends and I love hanging out with them, but I find it hard relating to new people. One thing I have learned though is that a lot of people that I have written off as carbon copies of these Barbie girls, are actually more like me than anyone would ever know. The problem is they just are afraid of being their authentic selves more than I am. I find once you get to know a lot of these people, they are just like anyone else, but probably more insecure and using their image as a cover. This of course does not apply to everyone, I have met too many dumbass girls in my short time on earth (I'm 24). I get annoyed with the superficiality of it all and the lack of meaningful conversation that a lot of these girls present. One of my problems is, I do enjoy being alone, spending time alone, being different and all that. Sometimes though, it would just be nice to be around other people that are more like me, people I can converse with and relate too. Also, a lot of my friends are marrying and having kids. I'm not ready for either of these things, and am not sure I will ever have kids or that marriage is something I believe in for myself. This does not mean I don't want a long-term commited relationship or hate children, I just do not know if either fits into my life. Sometimes I wonder if I'm missing out on something. Then again, sometimes I just think that I think far too much and would be far happier if I didn't focus on these things at all. I think the fact that you are introspective enough to think of these things makes you the type of person that I would like to hang out with, it sounds as though we have a lot in common. I guess I really don't have anything to say that can help you out, but I do relate and appreciate your post very much. Keep being the wonderful individual you are and I'm certain great things will come your way
