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Amnesia620 · 05-31-2007, 10:41 AM

I fit...however, I don't quite fit correctly.

Even now, after taking every step in the right direction, I find that I'm still different from most everyone. Normally, this would be good. Being unique is a beautiful thing, right? Yet, I'm so unique...I'm pretty much alone. I have people around me, of course. For example, my fiance' Joseph and his parents...and some of his friends who playfully irritate me at random...then there are a few people I see every now and then that I still call friends, however, visits have become fewer and farther between...and then there are my friends who don't live in the same city or state as me, which makes closeness, and sudden availability for a long conversation, difficult. The problem isn't having friends...it's making (or keeping) them.

For example, I find that a lot of girls my age (mid 20's) or younger (early 20's) are barbie doll carbon copies with various different accessories...however, they all seem to speak the same, look the same and like the same things. Sadly, with every one of them they fall into one or all of these categories: they're dumb, ditzy, immature, snotty, fake, or they are the gravitational center to orbiting drama.

Simply put, I find very little (if any) in common with these types of people.

Groups are just as hard. Anything I have to say is either ignored, or momentarily regarded then dismissed.

I would just figure that I've got social issues, that I'm a social outcast and that's my lot in life. However, I used to have A LOT of friends...people would seek me out to spend time with me. My company was wanted and my attention enjoyed...but now...

Physically, I've not changed much over the years. I'm friendly, happy, and caring. I'm pretty down-to-earth, mature, and intelligent.

So, what is it that I'm missing?

05-31-2007, 10:41 AM	#1 (permalink)
Amnesia620 Forget me not... Location: See that dot on the map? I don't live there.	I'm A Round Peg In A Square Hole... I fit...however, I don't quite fit correctly. Even now, after taking every step in the right direction, I find that I'm still different from most everyone. Normally, this would be good. Being unique is a beautiful thing, right? Yet, I'm so unique...I'm pretty much alone. I have people around me, of course. For example, my fiance' Joseph and his parents...and some of his friends who playfully irritate me at random...then there are a few people I see every now and then that I still call friends, however, visits have become fewer and farther between...and then there are my friends who don't live in the same city or state as me, which makes closeness, and sudden availability for a long conversation, difficult. The problem isn't having friends...it's making (or keeping) them. For example, I find that a lot of girls my age (mid 20's) or younger (early 20's) are barbie doll carbon copies with various different accessories...however, they all seem to speak the same, look the same and like the same things. Sadly, with every one of them they fall into one or all of these categories: they're dumb, ditzy, immature, snotty, fake, or they are the gravitational center to orbiting drama. Simply put, I find very little (if any) in common with these types of people. Groups are just as hard. Anything I have to say is either ignored, or momentarily regarded then dismissed. I would just figure that I've got social issues, that I'm a social outcast and that's my lot in life. However, I used to have A LOT of friends...people would seek me out to spend time with me. My company was wanted and my attention enjoyed...but now... Physically, I've not changed much over the years. I'm friendly, happy, and caring. I'm pretty down-to-earth, mature, and intelligent. So, what is it that I'm missing? __________________ For example, I find that a lot of college girls are barbie doll carbon copies with few differences...Sadly, they're dumb, ditzy, immature, snotty, fake, or they are the gravitational center to orbiting drama. - Amnesia620 Last edited by Amnesia620; 05-31-2007 at 10:44 AM..