tenniels

I think it's totally normal. I've felt this way about a few of my friends boyfriends, but of course would have never done anything to act on the feelings.

I've had quite a few friendships with males, and I find at some point it tends to get tricky. In high school, my three best friends were males (they all lived together) and I thought it was great, hanging with the guys no bitching etc. Eventually they all started to like me and it got very complicated. They fought between themselves and then took it out on me. I didn't see them as anymore than friends and was in a steady long distance relationship. They really fucked with my head near the end of it all, making me feel like a bad person like I was doing something wrong being their friends etc. Now, I see them occassionally and two of them are cool, but the third still acts like I'm the she-devil. I think it had a big impact on my subconcious when it comes to guys and relationships. I think friendships between guys and girls are possible, but unfortunately it seems something always goes wrong at some point.

__________________