katyg

...Really don't mix, in my experience I was a terrible partner when I smoked the stuff, it made me lazy, not appreciate things around me and frustrate all the people I cared about.

The fact that you are still thinking it over suggests that still you are unsure about what you have done, I can't see how you could possibly date somebody you never found attractive? If your sex life went well before it was probably something to do with the withdrawal. My advice would be to do some soul searching, if you think about it you never really experienced the real relationship anyway if you were always under the influence of cannabis?

If you are questioning that this person was the love of your life you owe it to both of you to understand yourself better and get to know how you feel and you'll only do that off the weed (or any other negative habits). I walked out on a partner because I couldn't quit when they asked me to and I swear it is the biggest regret of my life.

Some things are hard to take back once said, saying you never really found her attractive was foolish if you didn't know how you were really feeling - very hurtful, I'm not judging you, everyone has regrets, but rest assured that will stay with her. If you want to be with her you aren't choosing to be with her forever, you are choosing to give it a chance to happen, my advice - if you love her, get your head straight and maybe some day soon explain things to her. If you don't, leave her be. Just make sure you make the right choice for yourself and don't be scared to commit if you love her; once I did it, is set me free.