I'm in my last year of college (I'm going to graduate in May) and I've been feeling really depressed, especially lately. I never really had any friends growing up because I was never allowed to have friends over to my house or go to anyone else's house. When I came to college, I didn't really know how to make friends so the result is I have a lot of friendly acquaintences but no true friends. Everyone's nice to me when I'm around, but no one ever calls me to see how I'm doing or ask me to go anywhere (but they are perfectly nice when I call them). I started going out with my first boyfriend two months ago. For the last several weeks we grew distant and then he broke up with me on Tuesday because he felt it wouldn't be fair to me to lead me on for another few months and then dump me in time to ruin my graduation. So now I'm all alone again and feeling really empty. I can't really hang out with my friends except for on the weekends because they are always busy, but even when I do hang out with them, I still feel lonely. My only other option is hanging out with my ex-boyfriend and a girl who really gets on my nerves at times. I don't hate him, but it feels really awkward being around him since he dumped me. For instance, yesterday I went to the mall with him and that girl. I felt like a total outsider and I kept wondering why I even bothered going because she just prattled on and on about her soap operas and amusement parks and I had no idea what to talk about since I'm not into that stuff. So tonight I just stayed by myself watching TV, but as soon as the show was over I felt sad and lonely again. Add to that the fact that I have no idea what I'm doing after college, and I feel completely overwhelmed. I am getting help from the college career services to help me look for a job, and I started seeing one of the college's counselors the other day (my then boyfriend convinced me to go because I was really stressed out about my family, but the appointment I made ended up being two days after he dumped me). Anyhow, I guess I just needed to vent, but I'd really appreciate if anyone has any advice for me
