Lost: My sexuality. Reward if found!
The last 6 months I have lost my sexuality. More so in general my interest in sex. The want. The need. I just don't have it. Its very odd.
When I say I have no interest its that basic.
I recently met this amazing girl that I have fallen head over heels for. I have been single since my seperation. She lives 1000+ kms away. She came to visit me after a few months of talk/chat. It was a spectacular time. I can't get enough of this girl.
Anways to the point of the post. While she was here we *tried* to have sex. Mentally I was there. She is this amazing beautiful truely sexual being. (and so young and knows soooo much...) But the ole johnson wasn't wanting any part. It was non responsive when it should have been giving a 21 gun salute. :P She was great. Very understanding. There was no pressure on me to perform. It didn't ruin the weekend for either of us. We are so taken by each other that we know (the problem) it will eventually get better...
So through all this I was like "Fuck ya this girl is so amazing... mind body and soul..." She was turning me on in every way... but as I said. No responce from down below. :P Frustrating none the less. I would get some blood flow to my penis... a semi if you will, but it wouldn't even stay like that for more than a few minutes...
I went to the doctor and she asked a few questions. Blood pressure is fine. General health is spot on. She asked questions about morning wood and the firmness... I was thinking that everything was still normal there... but a week after the appointment I am noticing I don't even wake up with a boner anymore. So needless to say I will be going back to her to fill her in with this information. I am thinking my hormone levels are messed up. Or something. A blood test will tell a lot. If she will do one. I almost want to goto a male doctor b/c he may understand more the effect something like this can have on a man. It is very frustrating. I just want a boner! haha. I don't even jerk off more than 1 every 2 or 3 weeks :P just b/c the interest isn't there. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
So. I will update once I get to the doctor and they give me some more information. If this is a little random here and there I apologize I am a touch hung over. So.
Thanks for the listen. And good luck to me.
Kris.
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