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Performance Anxiety?
Here's my deal:
I recently split up with my girlfriend of 2 1/2 years (my decision). Over that period of time, I developed an internet porn habit that got to the point that i would look forward to looking at my favorite porn stars and and pleasing myself, more than I would look forward to having sex with her. Please note, that during all of this, I never had any problems performing with her, and we still had sex on a regular basis. I never had a problem getting turned on. When we parted, I met a gorgeous girl that should have made my penis stand up straight and tall, but I guess you could say that I "choked"---performance anxiety that I have never felt in the 29 years of my life. Eventually, it did work, but not to its full potential, and it was so embarrassing that the next time I was with her, that's all I could think about (my dick not working) and the dominoes started falling over. Thankfully, she was very cool about it, but I still get fear inside me whenever i know she will be around. It just doesn't make sense, and is making me afraid that i will permanantly be like this, even though I was fine a month ago with my girlfriend.
What the hell is wrong with me? Has porn totally ruined my sex drive, and melted my brain?? I am pretty sure that this is due to chronic masturbation....is it because that i was just used to my girlfriend, that i functioned properly around her? Does anyone else have an opinion, or have had anything similar happen to them in the bedroom? I really want to be myself again
thanks.
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