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I feel sorry for the girl.
Imagine how she feels. She has only ever been with one man and now she has this cross to carry, probably forever. It doesn't make her a bad person or any less worth being with. She's still as great as you remember right? She has also been upfront and told you. I'm sure a lot of people might not be so honest. I mean so much casual sex goes on all over the world, do you really think those about 50% of the population who have genital herpes, or HPV, or HIV (not an exact figure but a compounded ball-park one) go around telling every single partner they have it? No, they don't.
I understand you wanting to be protected and not being sure whether you want to put yourself at risk, especially not knowing whether it will last (but we never know anyway, in any situation), but if she's that important to you, maybe give her a chance. And by the way, safe sex is a myth. So is safe living. Good luck with whatever you decide.
Just want to say also, that no-one can blame you whatever decision you take. We're only human.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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