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Sounds like you may be becoming too analytical. It's very good to evaluate your motivations, but one can still be positive-minded and enjoy life, and laugh. Maybe you won't laugh at people in a demeaning, mean-spirited way, but there is still humor to be had, and hobbies to be enjoyed.
How about trying a hobby where you have something to show for your time, like wood-working or volunteering or something like?
And you can still enjoy the same things for different reasons. It sounds a lot like you are fearing your old motivations. Only you can say what your motivation is for laughing at something. If the reason conflicts with the direction you are trying to go with your new life, then redirect accordingly. But don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. You can easily convince yourself that everything is bad, has a root in a "negative" emotion, and strip your life of pleasure. Pleasure is not bad, don't become a Puritan, eh? :P
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At night, the ice weasels come." -
Matt Groening
My goal? To fulfill my potential.
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